Friday, May 28, 2004

I'm soooooooo cold! I wanna be by the beach! The sun's so nice today!!!!!I cant think of wat to write. I can't do my work!... brains frozen... tats it for today.

Hey Mama Lets Get Retarded!!!

B.E.P! B.E.P! B.E.P! The sound of excited fans screaming for the Black Eyed Peas to come on stage. But Phat Fabes and the morning crew guy showed up instead. They introduced the opening act which was Too Phat and their B-Boy crew. As usual they were rapping and talking with a I'm-Malaysian-ButIWanna-be-black voice. The b-boys were good tho...but then i think they kinda used up all their moves after the first 2 songs and then they just repeated their stunts. 4 of them were really good i admit with MJ moves and chun movements which i dont what they're called. Flying something or a spinning something.
Then the guys showed up again.They were kinda entertaining for awhile....buying time while the musicians got ready. But then it got kinda boring. I was sooo restless during the first part of the concert. Then, we heard 'whoops!'- 'ooooeeeooo!'-'aaahhhh!' and a few other indescribeable noises. The crowd head roared!
After like 10 minutes of waiting, the band came on stage and opened with the first song. Lots of dance action went on in front of me. This girl in a tube top was doin the 'Monica Dance'. I'm serious!!! For all you Friends freaks out know what i'm talking about. Well thank goodness she moved or i'd be laughing the whole night through.
Well what can i say...B.E.P Rocked!!! Cept that the sound system sounded a bit bad at first...they sounded kinda muffled and Fergie's voice was just piercing through my skull. But it was good! If i wasnt too tired i'd have participated a bit more. But i was whacked. My head hurt, so did my legs and back plus i had major gastricitis. So imagine me surrounded by a thousand over jumping teenagers and kids with my arms folded and head
nodding to the beat. Yeah too cool to jump around for Black Eyed Peas.
I guess on the whole it was okayy... made me feel better bout missing the Linkin Park and Incubus concert but then again.... you can't compare those with BEP.
By the way my tickets were free courtesy of KLue and those suckers who actually won the free tickets but couldnt make it!!!!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

in limbo

Ever feel like everything is moving about you so fast that you just loose your breath trying to catch up? Or you just wanna scream at the world to slow down cause you're not ready to move along with it or you just don't want to roll along with everything else.
I feel that way at times....Whatever happened to stopping to smell the flowers or living in a moment. I think the world has got something against me. I'm left behind in a kaleidoscope of nothingness. And i'm just strolling along, doin my own thing but so out of tune with everything else.
Is that good or bad? I don't know. But it's just a neither here nor there feeling wrapped up in unaccomplishment and a weird sense of being on a blank page.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

there's more yet to be said

Just when i felt like giving up on blogging, I find time to post my really random ramblings and thoughts that might not mean two cents to people reading but which mean a lot to lil ol' me who clings to the little things in life which i derive joy from.
The past two weeks have been sorta a whirl as i got caught up with work yet again and health issues. I was getting sorta jaded with work and kinda had no motivation at all. But somehow after my trip to Melaka i felt refreshed and knew that my work no matter how trivial it is, deserved my all. Cause i am working for God and not for men. Right?
Well work this week has been awesome and i managed to catch up with the music scene. I just realised that I can borrow whatever cd's they have here. *grin* So my desk is piled high with cd's and i'm listening to everything from Indie to Progressive Rock to New Age to Rap. Awesome stuff man!
Just finished Feeder and Blind Melon, moving on to Kula Shaker, Hole, Pearl Jam, Juliana Hatfield, Prana and Placebo.
Besides that, I've been kinda equivalent to a half dead duck. My stomach keeps doin this funky dance, and i feel woozy and nauseous all the time. Have no idea why though. Low blood pressure? Gastric??? Probrably everything all rolled into one.
Owhh went for Sujen's house warming today. Just got back awhile ago. Wasn't really feeling up for it...but kinda went cause i missed Abs. Missed talking to her and sharing silly thoughts and laughing bout everything. Had fun and all....but sometimes i wonder if I put up two different masks when i'm around people. Do I act differently around my FCM friends than I do with my CF friends? Perhaps....but why?????

Friday, May 14, 2004

It's about time I had my holiday!!! Goin off for the weekend!!! Toodles~!

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Scrumptiously Crunchable

Today marks one month of being in the working world. As hyped up as i was before... it's starting to die down. I mean...i do love the work i do... i get to write everyday....umm..even if it is just listings and events updates and reviews, I'll just take that as practice before i start something big on my own.
But at the end of the day....i sometimes feel like i'm not doing enough. I wanna do more design related stuff...i wanna use photoshop and illustrator again and NOT just for cropping pictures!!!!
At work i plan out my itenary for the evening when i get back, but by the time i step through the doors, I just wanna go sleep!!! All this travelling and being cooped up in an office is just tiring. Mom can i retire early????

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

silly sally, smelly melly?

1.Waiting for Omar to come by before goin to Deenas.Omar arrives. We hop into the car and drive off.
Omar: Mel did you just shower or something?
me: yeah. Why?
Omar: You smell like a car freshner!
me: :|

2.At the end of the trail after a night walk. We were the first group in the line and the guide left us to go check on the other people.
Abs: Hey i see lights! Lets go towards it. We're sure to arrive back at camp!
me: No!! we shouldn't! Don't you know what happens to bugs when they go towards the light??? ZAAPPPPP!!!!!!
Abs: Mel.....we're not bugs!!!!!!
me: heh...silly me...

Friday, May 07, 2004

after the looooong one

Now on Sunday after service, my mom decided to give us a treat and take us to Bayview Beach. Being a sun, sea and sand person I was of course excited and all eager to go. My dad didnt come and though i was a bit dissapointed, that feeling quickly dissappeared as now i could wear the skimpiest swim wear without having bother bout my dad finding out about my belly piercing. *grin* But of course being me....shy and all....just a simple two piece was sufficient. Even then i got dirty looks from people who looked like they had something against body piercing. *Bahh* I HAD FUN!!!! The beach rocked!!!! I didnt get enough sun tho. It was just a blissful day with my mom and sis...swimming, oogling, bitching, hehe usual girl stuff. Then we had a quiet dinner with more oogling and bitching. Maklumlah Batu Feringghi area has so many sights to see.

After dinner, i had a date! Went out with my chilhood friend again. We chilled at this shack by the beach. Had a drink while we talked bout things past and of younger days. It was just a moment I didnt really want to end. Imagine a lil bamboo shack with driftwood and tree trunks as furniture, raggae music in the background, the sound of waves and sand at your feet... pure BLISS. Well anyway it was really a beautiful night at the beach topped with banana pancakes with ice-cream and honey. *wink*

Thursday, May 06, 2004

a looooonggg one......

The whole week’s been such a whirl. I haven’t actually had time to sit and listen to my music or to spend time doodling or even to check my mails and to blog. It started with the long weekend back home which i was sort of dreading. My plans to go home with my 3 buddies didnt turn out so there i was at Pudu waiting at midnight with a million other people or so it seemed with a heavy bag and a heavy heart waiting for that darned bus to arrive to take me home to Penang. I was so tired of waiting with my heavy bag in the smoke filled place and with the gross people spitting all over - and was contemplating just goin back to cyber or to my brothers' place when the bus arrived - An hour behind schedule!!!

Note to self: NEVER travel by bus during public holiday weekends! It's just crazy i tell
yah! I took 7 freakin' hours to get back to BM! And the ride was just slow and stuffy and bumpy and yeah i'm complaining a lot here. Well anyways when i arrived i went for breakfast with my parents and all was well. Had a good meal of roti canai which somehow tasted so much better than the ones you get in Cyber or anywhere in Selangor. Then, I spent the whole day watching DVD's! Woohoo BM rocks with piracy! It was just pure bliss to lay back, and be a couch potato for the day. Owh how i miss my glorious TV set. A bit dramatic here but that's how you get when you haven't watched tv for months!In the evening, I went for mass and i was trying so hard to pay attention. I think the traditional mass is really beautiful but maybe the priests just need to get new sermon notes or something. Here's how he started his sermon-
"There was one guy who wanted a job very badly. The only job he could find was one that required him to wear a monkey suit. And he did. He put the suit on climbed into a cage and pretended to be a monkey. Things went well for a couple of days. Then one day as he was doing his thang' jumping around and all...he fell. And he yelled in pain. In the next cage, the donkey suddenly said 'Shut up you idiot! I don't want to loose my job too!'"
And that was supposed to be a joke. I didnt get it. I don't think anyone got it. And to top it up, he said all that in a VERY monotonous voice. But still i tried hard not to zone out and paid attention. I guess in the end his message was - If you want to accomplish a task or any work at all... do it as if you were working for the Lord. Have no idea what that had to do with the monkey. But owhh well. Later at night I met up with my childhood friend and we went for a drink and to just catch up.

On Sunday me and my sis got up early and 'snuck' outta the house. We were goin for Sunday service and didn't really want my dad to know. *sigh* You see, my dad's a catholic and so he insists that we follow him to the catholic church. And so for YEARS I've been going for mass then rushing off for service at Rivers Of Water(GROW)- my fantabulous church back home-. I got into trouble lots of times and got insults hurled at as well, but being my stubborn self I went anyway. I figured...2 services...double the blessing lah! Service was just awesome. My sleepiness and tiredness just vanished and it was just me and my Lord. My pastor preached on Ephesians 3. And not to compare or anything...but i got ALL his jokes and understood his message perfectly. *heheh*