Friday, December 29, 2006

dream on...

Who knew that one trip to the bookstore would set my perspective right.

I don't feel so lost anymore. I know for sure that I still have the same dreams and passions. I still don't see the end or the light at the end of the tunnel. It still feels like i'm groping in the dark. But i'm still trusting. I know where i need to be. I know YOU're right here walking with me.

Sometimes i do lose sight of the vision. Sometimes i do think its all a waste of time and i feel like King Solomon in Ecclesiastes. I get whiny and sound like a character from Prozac Nation. But I thank God for the little tugs i receive which brings me back to solid ground.

I think I was slowly giving up. On life, on everything I believed in, in my dreams, but I thank YOU Lord for showing me that YOU still have great plans for me. I thank YOU for showing me that every dream is a possibility, that the little things do matter and that i just gotta press on. But most of all I thank YOU for assuring me that i ain't alone.

I know things change and i don't expect friends to remain the same or situation to remain unchanged. SO today, I look forward to the change YOU're bringing with the new year. I thank YOU for the dreams that have still remained and which have grown.

Thursday, December 14, 2006



Proverbs 19:21
“Many are the plans in a human’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails”

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

grace

Taken from "that other place" dated May 9th, 2006

Today I was reminded that:

"Our source of confidence, self worth, courage, dignity and strength is based on one else and nothing else and in no self achievemnet but in Christ alone"
-Jas-


We all need grace. And i'm thanking The Big Guy for His grace which is sufficient for me.

For the picture that i see impressed upon my mind I know that God painted this picture just for me, a gift for me that’s only mine. "


Somewhere along the way, I lost sight of that picture. Today, I shall try painting a new one.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

thoughts ...

Nothing seems to change when you're numb. They say time heals all hurt, but time just seems to transform the numbness. I'm practically frozen now.

I wonder, do we really learn from our hurt? Or maybe we just lower down our standards and settle for the next best thing. Or maybe when we've had enough of all this crap, we just harden our hearts, and appear like we just don't care.

That seems to be working out just fine for now.

Monday, December 11, 2006

in memory...

December 11th 1992

I remember waking up in the middle of the night to empty beds. Everyone was gone. You were gone. I stayed up all night waiting. Hoping you would come back.

I remember having to take down the Christmas tree, and removing all the red and green decorations and stuffing them in the store room. We had to make room for your casket.

Christmas was never the same after you left. I still wish you were around. But I know you're in a far better place. I'll be seeing you someday. :)

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

jaded...

There HAS to be more than this...

Friday, December 01, 2006

World AIDS Day

Did you know, as many as 73,000 Malaysians have been infected with HIV. And according to the health ministry, three people die of AIDS everyday in our country. That's no joke man.

PSA of the day: Don't do drugs, use protection and well... be safe.

In support of World AIDS Day, wear a red ribbon:

Support World AIDS Day

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smile ...

I ain't exactly hurting or in fear or going through some deep sorrow right now, but I listen to this song whenever i've got the blues. Thanks Michelle for reminding me of the song. ;)

Anyway, here's some background info :
Smile was the theme music for Charlie Chaplin last silent picture Modern Times in 1936. It became officially Smile when John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons added lyrics to Chaplin's composition in 1954. Nat King Cole then recorded the song and it became a hit!

SMILE
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

PS: HULLLOOOOOO December!!!

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