Thursday, May 24, 2007

i'm off~

I'll be leaving in a few hours. I'm not exactly prepared and i'm scared shit about the whole trip.
No i don't fear flying or traveling or even having to pee in the bush.
I just don't feel very prepared.
Maybe its cause i've had too much on my mind lately.
Maybe it's cause i've been slacking in my walk.
Yea yea wrong time to slack right when you're going to some island which isn't exactly in the safe zone and when you're gonna be visiting a cult village and you're gonna be far out of the city with possibly no connection with the outside world. (drama queen that I am)
Mannn... i must've been stupid to agree to this.
But owhh well.... my bags are packed and i'm ready to go.
So do pray for me and the team.
and HOPEFULLY, i'll manage to get back and blog about it.


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

nipped in the bud

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom ~ anais nin

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Rock Goddess

When i was younger, i absolutely LOVED the whole hippie culture. I probably wasn't even old enough to understand fully what took place at Woodstock or whatever, but i was just blown away by the bracelets,bohemian dresses,long hair, flowers and lil peace signs and the energy of the crowd who'd come together to celebrate and just enjoy music. (among other things. heh.)

I was even more blown away when i first saw Rock Goddess, Alanis Morissette in concert way back in 95' or 96' and thought to myself "owh boy! i wanna be just like her!!!" Well not the Buddhist/Hindu part but just her whole aura and how she performed and how she sang and spoke and played the guitar. And how she was quite a feminist. I really appreciated her emotional honesty in her songs and that's when i started writing. =) I was just so taken up with her. I even learned a couple of her songs from 'Jagged Little Pill' and tried to jam with Jo. But we sucked obviously. =p

I thought she was the most gorgeous singer even with the Joker smile and quirky habits and all.
When she lost her signature long hair that was about the same time i chopped my locks off. And i thought, "Sweet!" and i didn't feel so bad about losing all my hair.

Well i stopped religiously following Alanis's career after her Under Rug Swept album but i did keep up with the news and caught a few tracks from her following albums. I can't really pin point my favourite track though, cause there's just too many to choose from! But one which i listen to
really often is from the Unplugged album called 'That I Would Be Good'. When she suddenly comes in with the flute, my hair just stands on end. haha!

I still admire her a great deal and guess what!!!!! She's been busy writing and is supposedly coming out with a new album this year! woohoo! Well one of the tracks is on her site so do check it out!!

Also view:
Alanis cover of RATM's Guerilla Radio
My Humps
Alanis atWoodstock 99'

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Friday, May 18, 2007

mel's big problem of the day:

- high heels vs. flats

- noodles vs. rice

- hoops vs. studs

- writing. entertainment. people. phones.
vs technology incubator. business. management. financial. writing.

- Damansara vs. KL

- money vs. job satisfaction

ugh. this list keeps getting harder.
decisions decisions.
can i take a holiday. like NOW.


Thursday, May 17, 2007

getting inspired

10 things i can't get enough of:

1. blinklist
2. sms-es
3. hot chocolate
4. hugs
5. wonderwall
6. Pink Gerberas
7. Flea Markets
9. Google
10. YOU!


the need to...

The need to break free claws at me from the moment i wake up. I can't live a mundane life much longer. There's been so many changes yet, it all seems so familiar.
Dissatisfaction, un-accomplishments. It just boils down to not being in that place where you want to be.

I need to be inspired. I feel so..... uncreative.

At this juncture, in the midst of all the hustle and bustle of everyday life, i find myself pausing,
to listen to that inner voice, to listen to nature and the things around me.
To just be.
To lie awake in the wee hours of the morning and just listen to the raindrops on your window and the world stirring outside.

But sometimes all you need is to let loose and just act a lil' silly.

me and my silly house mate

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Sunday, May 13, 2007


I was just thinking to myself today, since its May 13th and all... have we really come far since the riots of '69 and achieved racial harmony in multi-cultural Malaysia?


Wednesday, May 09, 2007


In the bleakest of days, a friend sent me this:
"New day, new mercies, new hope, new love, new peace, same awesome God"
Thank you.
That still helps me get through.


Monday, May 07, 2007

Jimmy v2

Jimmy's back in action. with a spanking new hard disk and a new motherboard!

but..... my joy was short lived when i got home and plugged in my machine.
my freakin keyboard doesnt work!!!

so here i am pathetically clicking on my on-screen keyboard for the mere sake of blogging......

gahhh..... this ain't worth it.