Sunday, December 23, 2007

this Christmas....

i'm home :)
it's gonna be an awesome Christmas.
my Christmas wish came early this year. :)
bliss~
=D
have a good one you guys~!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

bliss

so i spent the first night of my holiday at the movies with a long lost friend.
and we read poetry and walked around aimlessly in the insanely huge mall.
But we didn't buy anything (hoorah!)
twas a good start to my extremely long holiday.
looking forward to more fun days and of course Christmas!
*grin*

It's gonna be a fantabulous week yo!!!

Monday, December 17, 2007

I think i'm just a wee bit of a weirdo.
when i'm on MC, i toss and turn in bed wishing i was on my computer at work.
i hate staying home alone when i'm sick. heh.
when i'm on Emergency Leave, (my first one ever in all my years of working), i feel so darn guilty and wish i had hitch-hiked to work or something.

sheesh.


Friday, December 14, 2007

scapegoat

everyone's looking for a scapegoat
and it was just too bad that i was the one who had to screw up
woe be me.
*sigh...*

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

a million miles

I feel like Renee Zellweger in Jerry Mcguire. heh

Shell lead you down a path
Therell be tenderness in the air
Shell let you come just far enough
So you know shes really there
Shell look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
Shes got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away
- Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen -

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

never ending...

The past few days have been a jumble of dates and events that i've lost track of time and haven't even seen the light of day in NINE days.
Today as things slow down and i sit at my computer trying to catch up with times, i realise its the 11th of December.

For a moment i catch a glimpse of the nine year old me. Still in my pajamas walking about the empty house in the middle of the night. Afraid.
Wondering why everyone had suddenly rushed out, and left all the lights on.
I walked downstairs to see my brother on the couch looking at the blinking Christmas tree. I join him there and we just waited.
Fearful.
I guess that's when i started being fearful of being alone. Afraid of being left behind.

My grandfather who was staying with us had had a heart attack. My parents had rushed him to the ER, where he collapsed and passed away a couple of hours later. My grandfather was cremated on the same day and his ashes scattered out at sea. He was with granny at last. He had dreams of her after her passing. I'm sure he envisioned the moment they would meet again.

Now he 's with her in eternity. The perfect love story.

15 years later, I look back and think.
That love story never ended. It just continued to grow.
With their children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren....
We will always remember, their loved remained and it passed down....

I just hope, when my story continues...
it would be just as great. :)

Monday, December 10, 2007

flying solo

i wish you knew....
i don't deserve this...
but maybe i do.
too many mistakes to paint over
too many disappointments to just let pass me by
so i'm flying solo
Just me and the wide white world
I'm going solo.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Day 6

It's Day 6 of all the madness.
I'm still ALIVEEEEEEE
well barely...

I survived hotel food which made me lau sai and puke for 2 days.
My stomach's still churning from all the hotel food i've been having for 6 days.
I think my stomach's getting stronger now tho...
I think my stomach is weaker.
My brains are friend.
and I still have 9 articles to go for the weekend.

*hyperventilates*

Well I'm just trying to keep afloat with thoughts of Christmas! It's 3 weeks away!!!!!!!
whee!~~~

Sunday, December 02, 2007

before the chaos

someone who first claimed that he has NOTHING to blog about is now blogging at break-neck speed that i took the whole morning to catch up on his posts.
seeeee i told you, you would be a great blogger!!

Well i've just emptied out half my closet and trying to pack for the next two weeks. Im going bonkers cause its the first time i'm leaving behind all my tshirts and shorts and jeans and taking instead formal attire, some of which i've never worn before, and others, i haven't picked up, since 2003.

I'll be away from 'home' from the 3rd till the 12th and i'll be working from 9am till 1am (no kidding). So expect the 'dead-duck' version of Mel when i return to my mundane life in two weeks time!

cheerio!